Monday, November 10, 2008

Anxiety & Panic


Today didn't start out good at all. I woke up this morning feeling anxious and nervous. Then at work I started to feeling like I was gonna have a panic attack. I went in the bathroom, locked the door and sat on the floor, which my knees up to my chest and my arms wrapped around them. I closed my eyes and rocked back and forth as I concentrated on my breathing. In my head I was reciting the 23rd psalms. This might all sound crazy but it helped. Wouldn't you know as soon as I went in there someone wants to knock on the door. Being that I wasnt feeling too good, I wasn't in the best mood the rest of the work day. My mind was...I dont know where but it wasnt at work. I managed to burn up two pans of pizza. And after I had dumped all the trash I forgot and left all the trash cans out side. So I was standing there wondering where all the cans were. Sad thing is, I dont even remember leaving them out there. Thats how far gone my mind was. I dont know why I was feeling that way but Im feeling alot better. I hope there wont be a repeat performance of this tomorrow. No need for an ancore. When I was walking home today this man was looking at me, I just ignored him and kept walking. So I get all the way up the road and I turn at the corner and I look over and he's waving for me to come over where he is. Is he nuts. Like Im about to turn around and walk all the way back down the street just to see if he wants. If he had something to say, he should have said it when he was walking by me. I was tired and not in a happy mood, I dont know who told him he was worth making a u-turn for but it wasnt me. I hate having to use that hand sanitizer cuz it keeps breaking out my hand. I put lotion on my hand today and it burned so bad. I got four bandaids on my fingers and now they are itching. I guess thats it for now. Please excuse me while I go watch Prison Break.




5 comments:

MISSY said...

When I have panic attacks, I rock too. Anxiety will make you feel like you're not "with it". I feel like I'm in a daze a lot and am VERY forgetful. *M*

Missie said...

If your not on anxiety meds, it may be time to start. Panic attacks are horrible!

Amanda said...

(((((((((((HUGSTOYOU))))))))))))))))I am sorry to hear you had panic attacks,I know what they are like and they arent pretty.I am glad you feel better and I pray you dont have them again.I hope you have a better day.

Tabby said...

I only had an anxiety attack once, I thought I was dying I could not catch my breath. I sure hope your alright. I will be looking for your post today to see if you are better.
Tabby

sober white women said...

I do hope that you are having a better day today. I have often spaced things and thought I was going crazy. You are not alone there.
Kelli