Ok...I've debated on wether I would put my feelings out there about this or not. Im not sure what I was gonna write about today but I know it wasnt going to be anything good because my nerves have been bad all day and Im not sure why. But anyway, I will spare you the details of all that today and will just make a statement. I'm a nice person, and on most days I'm a bubbly and upbeat person, even in times where im going thru things, I try my hardest to keep a good out look on things and look on the brightside. But sometimes its hard specially when everything seems to come at you all at once. One thing I think everyone should know, there is alot more going on in my life than what I type on here. I struggle with myself on what I should open up about because of how different people respond. From time to time I may put something in here that is personal and Im not sure if I should share, but I do it to test and see how people will percieve me and react to what I write. Depending on what type of response I get it either makes me feel like I can be more open or it leaves me gun shy and not wanting to put myself out there again. I write all this to say that yes I may complain alot in my journal but that is what my journal is for. I come here to release the stress of whatever I may be going thru. Things I maybe feeling that I cant or wont express in my everyday life. I come here to express myself. Im not writing this to be mean or anything. I appreciate all of my readers and I value your comments and opinions, but I need you all to understand that this is my outlet, my way of getting things off my chest so I wont explode, go nuts or sink into depression or something. If anyone feels like they dont want to read those types of things, I understand and its ok, but nobody is forced to read. Most days my journal will have complaining in it cuz I need to be able to release the tension I may feel. I dont know, it might be alot of people who feel that way, and its ok if you dont like what you read here. But I'm saying this now for any future entrys or comments, this is me, this is where I vent, if it bothers you in anyway Im sorry but you dont have to read it if you dont want. Once again Im not trying to be mean and Im trying to write this in the nicest way possible without being offensive. I hope I haven't offended anyone but I felt like I needed to put that out there. Thanks to everyone for reading and commenting, I hope everyone will continue. There will be more complaining so you've been warned, lol.