Im not sure how many days I missed writing in here

But I guess it doesnt matter

Work has been really hard and stressful for me this week

So, Im tired, worn out and stressed

My allergies have been acting up pretty bad too all week

And I've been having lots of headaches

Im so glad that today is Friday

Maybe I can get some rest and relax...for once

Tacky Tuesday

Tacky Tuesday

It is just so tacky for someone to come up to me and tell me that they want an adult plate tomorrow..1st today is not tomorrow, 2nd I know what a freakin adult plate is which still might not be as much as you want it to be but its just tacky to bring it all up the day before like Im gonna be walking round getting ready to serve you tomorrow...yeah right.

It is so tacky for someone to go and tell my boss that I didnt finish the dishes in the dishroom. If this certain lazy person hadnt been so freakin fast to do it herself I would have gotten around to it.

It is extremely tacky to make us serve 7 different foods on one tray and 5 on another. 10 things to serve in all with people piling up back to back.

It is really tacky for almost all the teacher to come on my side to get their tray when theres another line on the other end completely open.

It is sadly tacky for me to have to tell the back up person more than two times that I need something on the line and still not get it and then ending up having to go back and get it myself.

It is horribly tacky for me to realize when I go back in the back to get what should have been brought to me to see the back up person sitting in the middle of the freakin floor! (I kid you not)

And it is sickeningly tacky for a substitute teacher to come to the door yelling "Hello!" loudly over and over again like we dont know people are out their waiting to be fed. Its not like were sitting in the back lounging...well, some of us anyway.

And last but certainly not least, it is definately tacky to tell me how to do my job when I know what Im doing.

*Everyone who reads this please please, go by my friends page and leave her some love. Her sister died today and she needs love and support to help her thru this hard time. Thanks in advance..heres the link.

http://learningtoadapt.blogspot.com/2009/01/rest-in-peace.html

Movie Monday

Wanna know whats hot in theaters or on dvd...well, in my opinion anyway. Thats what Movie Mondays are about. if anyone knows of any good movies out there or that maybe coming out soon..let me know. I love movies. Here are my picks for this week.

Lakeview Terrace: coming out on dvd tomorrow. Its starring Samuel L. Jackson who plays a bad cop who starts to terrorize his neighbors. Netflix is sending it to me tomorrow. Yay!

Repo: its like a horror movie/musical thingie..looks interesting tho. Its on dvd but, Im on the waiting list :(

The Uninvited-I think this is coming out in theaters on Friday. Definately want to see that.

Underworld:Rise of the Lycans: Is in theaters right now. Hopefully I can see that this weekend.

Mirrors: On dvd and still on my freakin waiting list

Wanted: looks good...fast cars, guns and Angelina Jolie...whats not to like.

The Mummy:Tomb of the Dragon Emperor-on dvd..still waiting. Ive seen all of the mummy movies so I really want to see this.

Tyler Perry the family that Preys-I like Tyler Perrys movies..always full of drama...on dvd, but once again, Im still waiting.

Words to ease the pain

Nothing much going on today..dont know what to say so I'll leave you with a poem I just wrote.

Hate me for something I cant control
Blame me for the things you behold
Is all my fault I understand
Because I wont submit to your demands
because Im not who you want me to be
that makes it something wrong with me
go ahead and believe if thats what makes it better
cuss me and dog me out in a letter
nothing I ever do is right
everything I say seems to lead into a fight
I give up, Im done trying to please you
It will never be enough, no matter what I do
So cue the violins and sing your sad song
Goodbye, good riddence, so long

Words

I have new scratches on my wrist. I have no idea where they came from but im just noticing it. I know I had something red on my wrist earlier this week but I didnt know what it was..I guess it was blood. I think my skin is too soft. Its not good to bruise and cut yourself so easily. Lastnight me and my brother watched "Max Payne". It was an ok movie, but I guess I thought it would be more too it than it was. I kept waiting for something to happen that never did, lol. I dont know exactly what I expected but it wasnt this. Anyway, I was looking thru some of my old poems today and I came across this one. Im sure I probably posted this here before but I like it so im posting it again.


Last night it felt like it
Like I needed just one hit
Or I would go crazy
If I have to do without it I just get lazy
when I feel I might loose myself
detache from the world itself
tears on the brim of my eyes
as something inside me dies
Lost inside my own padded cell
Why does earth sometimes feel like hell
unloose the noose around my neck
deny me my needs, drown in neglect
lastnight i felt like giving in
the lines they crossed were very thin
they bleed into bricks and walls
Being pushed but just wont budge at all
Lastnight I felt like giving up
Felt like shattering my empty cup
Thats when I felt like it
Like I needed just one hit
Thought I was going crazy
Things started to get hazy
Just when things were getting a little to deep
Me and my troubles fell asleep

This Girl Is Free

Im so glad the weekend is here. Can you believe it actually got warm today. Weird. Im looking foward to sleeping in tomorrow. I didnt get to last saturday. I slept so good this morning, I didnt want to get up. Lastnight me and my brother watched "The Ruins". It was really good. Tonight were going to watch "Max Payne". This lady at my job is irritating me cuz she always comes and sit with me while im on my lunch break. it just makes no sense to me cuz she's off work at that point. If it were me Id take my butt home. But anyway..TGIF stands for something different today...means This girl is free!

Thursdays Thoughts

Im so glad that tomorrow is friday. I look forward to sleeping in saturday morning since I didnt get a chance to last saturday. Even tho I only had to work four days this week it still seemed long. I've been having trouble with my allergies all week. I actually went to bed early lastnight because I felt so bad. I did sleep good tho. I had to take a nap today too because I had to take some knock out medicine. I got a movie from netflix today called "The Ruins". I dont know if Im going to watch it tonight or wait. It depends on if this medicine has worn off by 11 tonight. Theres no way I'll be able to sit up and watch a movie with my head swooning all over the place. Anybody watch "Super natural" tonight. Im finding alot of scratches all over my arms and hands lately and I dont know where they are coming from. Weird..Im always hurting myself.

Eyes Open but Blurry

They celebrated the 100th day of school today. How many days does it mean we have left? Its too early for me to start counting. I can only go as far as the count down to spring break..yeah I should put one of those counter things back on here..or not. American Idol is coming soon. Hopefully watching that will wake me up. Im high on medication right now. Maybe I'll go to bed early tonight..ah, maybe not, lol.

Tuesday wasnt bad

Today at work wasnt bad at all. I didnt have anything hard to do, so that was good. All she had me down on the work schedule to do was to wash the breakfast dishes. Which didnt take me long to do. So after I finished that I just kept myself busy by finding other things to do. I Empty two carts, finished up in the dishroom, took out the trash, put forks in the cups, put out the dishes and put the fruit, vegatables and sandwhiches on the serving line. It wasnt hard to working in the dishroom today, because some of the classes ate in paper plates and went to their classrooms to eat. Others ate in the regular plate and stayed in the lunchroom. It was fine with me cuz thats less dishes I had to wash and less trash I had to take out. In the lunchroom they had the tv on so people could watch the inauguration. Alot of the kids dressed up too. My mom was telling me that she heard that at some schools, some teachers and parents didnt want the kids to watch it. Now Im wondering if thats why some of the teachers and students ate in their classrooms today. If that was the reason, I think it is very stupid. Everybody as a right to their own opinion or whatever but to just not allow your students to even watch it is wrong. Most kids probably wouldn't pay much attention to it anyway, but still..to go to that extreme, to me that is just wrong. But whatever. My brother made my day today. He bought "Saw V" and Max Payne" on dvd today. Yay! I cant wait to watch! Oh, and I got a book called "The NoteBook" in the mail today. My best gurl Missy sent it to me. Thank you sweetie! So, today has been a pretty good day so far.

In the Dark

well, im sitting here typing in the dark because, well someone blew my light while I was sleeping. My allergies started up again and I had take some medicine. I couldn't take it anymore so I took a nap. I think Im allergic to dust cuz I noticed anytime I clean and start to kick up dust my allergies act up. Anyway, so I cant see my keyboard. I guess I dont need to see it cuz my fingers pretty much knows where all the keys are but sometimes I get confused. Im wondering if I should get a candle or something.

Sunday @ the Movies

Today me, my mom and my brother went to the movies. We went up there to see "My Bloody Valentine 3D" but when we get there the girl at the counters says that its not in 3D..so we saw something else instead. We saw "The Unborn", which was really good. Im glad we went to see it. I cant wait til "Saw V" comes out on dvd Tuesday. My brother is gonna buy it. Max Payne comes out Tuesday too. Yay!

Saturday Stuff

Today has been a pretty good day today. I didn't do much. But I did get to go out for a bit earlier today. I haven't done much since I been home except do a little cleaning. Talked on the phone with my girl Missy and Paul. Feel better ok Missy! My nose hurts. This bump just appeared and it hurts so bad. Im gonna watch a movie with my brother in a few minutes. I got Death Race in the mail from Netflix. I feel like Im getting a headache tho so I think Im gonna pop two advils and lay down and watch it. I think Im gonna pay my mom to wash the dishes too cuz I dont feel like it. I wish I had a maid. If I was rich I definately would. But im po..*sigh* So no maid for me.

Bunch of Witches

Im so glad that today is Friday. Its been another one of those days. The people at my jobs are some childish idiots. I mean Im the youngest person that works there, so how come Im the only one that has some maturity. Grow up please. Ok, so I grabbed a pair of clean socks and put them on after I took a bath cuz my feet were cold, I was not thinking about the color of the socks or what I would be wearing. I just wanted to cover my feet. So I ended up wearing pink socks to work and I had one black and grey...and? Whats so freakin funny about that. I'm not participating in a freakin fashion show, and what do they care...their my socks and my feet, I can put on what I want. I'll wear mixed matched socks if I want too...actually I have before, I dont see why thats so funny. I mean are their lives that boring that the cloth on my feet is a fascinating subject...whatever. Pissed me off. They are lucky it wasnt yesterday when this happened..all of their feelings would have been hurt. I was in a foul mood yesterday...just waiting for someone to cross me. These people are just like...ugh, I dont know how to describe them. Kind of like volutures looking for a dead carcass to feed on. But enough of them...stupid idiots. Excuse my rant please. But I'm just worn out for real. Mentally and physically, and Im so glad that I have three days off to rest. I just hope they I can enjoy my entire weekend. When I came home from work today I passed out, well after talking on the phone for 15 minutes...and changing clothes, then i passed out. I had to take allergy medicine earlier cuz I felt a sneeze attack coming on. I slept for 3 and 1/2 hours. Probably would have slept longer if Snowflake hadnt woken me up. I needed to get up too cuz I cant get rid of those witches I work with. They were all up in my dreams. So anyway, I guess thats it for now. Later.

One more day of this

Man..Im so exhausted. Today at work was not good for me. I was in a bad mood all day at work, everyone was getting on my last nerves, and I was trying so hard not to snap on anyone. Man was it hard! One teacher...had the nerve to ask me what was wrong with me, and its not even that she asked me that but how she asked me...I was so close to snapping on her. She already has an irritating personality. I seriously cant deal with her on a moody day. I was so glad to get away from that place. After work I walked to the atm machine and then I got a money order, then I came back home. Lastnight me and my brother watched the movie "Planet Terror". It was good, but so gross. I found myself covering my face more than once. I didnt get in bed til after 1am..not sure what time I ended up falling asleep. That might be the reason I woke up in a bad mood, because I haven't been getting enough rest. Im gonna try hard to go to bed earlier tonight.

Pooped

Well, its been one of those days. I feel so tired, so this will be very short. But I just wanted to say Im very unhappy that I didnt get the movie "Mirrors". Netflix has it as "a very long wait". My mom was going to the store so I asked her to go to blockbusters to get it and can you believe that they didnt have it cuz they are freakin closing! This sucks, the universe is just set on making me wait some more..its not right. :( Anyway...Im pooped. Maybe I can do a longer entry tomorrow. But right now, its just not in me.

Words set on fire

what is it about the ocean that drowns me out
the salt burns my skin and makes me doubt
if i can handle the current thats on its way
if I can make it thru another day
why is it like sand scraping against a sore
constantly faced with the slamming door
wounds that wont seem to heal
no where to hide, no way to conceal
the hurt and pain continues to grow
trying so hard not to let it show

Mondays Movies

Im so excited about "Mirrors" coming out on dvd tomorrow. I really hope Netflix sents it out tomorrow. Ive been wanting to see that movie since it came out. Its a movie coming out soon called "Push", I want to see that too but I will be waiting for dvd for that one. "My Bloody Valentine 3D", comes out Friday. I was thinking about going to see it when it when it comes out but I decided I'd wait til next weekend. I could wait for it to come out on dvd but it wouldnt be the same. I doubt if u rent it on dvd it would come with a pair of 3D glasses..would be nice but I seriously doubt it. Anyway, If im gonna see this movie (which I really want to) I need to get the full 3D experience. Im sure they will pass out 3D glasses at the theater. What plucks my nerves is that I had a pair of 3D glasses that I had gotten for free and now I have no idea where they are. Probably trashed them. And on the 15th of this month "Saw V" comes out, yay! Cant wait...and "Max Payne" too.

Thorns for Thoughts

I shouldnt be left alone with my thoughts. I think for too much and for too long. Open doors leave room for negativity to come in. But how do you leave yourself open for the good things without recieving any of the negative. I feel like the more I try to focus on the positives and let things get to me, the harder it is. Feels like something is always nipping at my heels, clawing at the edges of my sanity and it does not feel good. Its a daily fight to be happy. Just like now, nothing is going wrong at the moment but negative thoughts keep trying to pop into my head. Why is that. I wish I had some type of remote to turn my thoughts off. But I'll continue to fight off the negativity. My allergies started up today, so I ended up taking some medicine, which had me so sleepy I couldn't even focus, so I broke down and took a nap. I only planned to sleep for an hour, even set my alarm clock, still I ended up sleeping longer. I guess I needed tho. Now the medicine has worn off but I have a headache. I dont know if I should take two advils or not. I feel like im becoming a pill popper, lol.

A Sweet Saturday

Today has actually been a good day for me. I haven't been doing much. But I got a movie in the mail today from netflix. At first I thought that it didnt come because the mailman didnt bring it at first. He had to come back for a second trip, When he came back he brought back a big box too. My best girl Missy sent me a box full of bath stuff, a book, a stuffed squirrel and some note cards with envies. I think Im gonna go get a coke. I hope Junior gets home by 10 so we can watch the movie together.

Is it me, her or the moon?

I had a hard time getting to sleep last night, which means I slept longer than I should have this morning. I felt so tired all day at work and my shoulders feel sore. After work I went and cashed my lil check. I dont know what the mans problem was at the liquor store but he was in a bad mood. I really dont appreciate ppl taking their problems out on me. I have a stressful job like alot of ppl do, I have to deal with ungrateful not so nice people all the time but i cant just go around snappin on folks all willy nilly. Got problems at home? hey, i do too, leave that mess at the door and pick it up when you get back thank you very much. My batteries in my cd player ran out on me on my way back home and I have no idea why cuz I thought they were new..but the way my week has been going I cant be exactly sure. Ive been off on alot of things lately. And I have no idea where i put my other bottle of hand sanitizer..and I kinda need it, or will be needing it soon. I should have bought that bottle when i was at the store last..too late now. Ouch..my shoulders. I have a question. When your cat has been...um...fixed, is it possible for them to become...well, unfixed? Cuz I seriously believe my cat is in heat..this should not be happening. Maybe its the full moon. But hearing her cat moans and seeing her move around with her butt in the air, rubbing on everything is making me very uncomfortable because she keeps looking at me, and Im sorry but there is nothing I can do to help, lol. There is no way anyone is gonna buy this cat on ebay with her acting like this.

Tired Thirsty Thursday

I'm so tired. My arms are sore from lifting three heavy trash cans this morning. Allergies were still acting up today but I guess I took some medicine in time enough. Thankfully I haven't been sneezing. My throat needs time to heal. I watched this movie lastnight called "Breathing Room". Its was so independent. And it made no sense what so ever. I need to stop picking movies that I never heard of before. From now on Im sticking to the ones I know about. This crazy cat snowflake is making me want to put her on ebay..yes I want to ebay our cat. She really has got to stop waking me up in the morning before I have to get up. This morning she decides to wake me up 30 minutes before I have to get up. I lost count on how many times I had to throw her off of me but i was not getting up until it was time. I dont know why but when im cold it takes me awhile to get warm. So I end up turning the heat up high, and now my room feels like a freakin oven, and I end up having to turn the heat off..then Im cold again, so the cycle starts all over again.

The Sneezing continues

today was another one of those days. I couldn't sleep last night and I woke up feeling hung over from the medicine I took the day before, so I havent been feeling good all day, on top of that my allergies continued to act up, which led me to take more medicine. It rained part of the day, but thankfully I didnt get rained on and didnt have to work in the rain. The wind was blowing really hard tho. It went from being hot yesterday, to raining, to cold, just like that. No wonder I keep getting sick. Anyway..ugh..yeah. Tomorrows another day, hopefully it will be better. I got a movie in the mail today called "Breathing Room". I hope its a good one.

Tired Tuesday

Today at work wasnt too bad. For some strange reason it got really hot today. The weather drastically changing back and forth is what is keeping people so sick. When I got home from work my allergies started up. So I ended up taking some medicine, then I had to go to sleep because I couldnt stand the drowsiness any more. And then I slept too long. I should have slept for just an hour instead of an hour and 30 minutes. Anyway, hopefully tomorrow wont be bad either.

Movie Monday

well today is my last day of vacation. My heart is crying. I didnt realize it was so close to being over until I was reminded during a phone call saturday when I was asked about going back to work Monday..I had to quickly check my calendar. So sad..but true. So anyway, I keep finding new webisodes to watch. I guess I'll find my limit sooner or later. Its about time for that unwanted visitor again. If im counting my days correct, tomorrow is the day. Figures it would pop up again on the day I have to go back to work. I didnt get in the bed until about 4:30am, and I dont think i feel asleep until after 5:30. I know Im going to have a hard time getting up in the morning. I didnt wake up this afternoon until after 1pm. Im gonna miss being able to sleep in. The movie I saw this weekend called "Jumper", was really good. Theres some movies coming out this month that I really want to see. "The Uninvited, "The Unborn" and "My Bloody Valentine 3D".

Whats on?

Some new shows started tonight
Confession of a teen idol
The Rock of love bus
Superstars of dance
anybody watching any of those?

Too much Coughing

I havent been feeling too good today, so I havent done much. I've been in a weird mood and i cant stop coughing, its starting to make me feel sick. Nothing good is on tv. I have to wait til 11 to watch the netflix movie I got today, its called jumper. Him and my dad are watching the game.Ive been watching these two webseries that I found today and yesterday. One is called "Tylers Ride" and the other is called "Tangled Web. I should go read...or something..