I shouldnt be left alone with my thoughts. I think for too much and for too long. Open doors leave room for negativity to come in. But how do you leave yourself open for the good things without recieving any of the negative. I feel like the more I try to focus on the positives and let things get to me, the harder it is. Feels like something is always nipping at my heels, clawing at the edges of my sanity and it does not feel good. Its a daily fight to be happy. Just like now, nothing is going wrong at the moment but negative thoughts keep trying to pop into my head. Why is that. I wish I had some type of remote to turn my thoughts off. But I'll continue to fight off the negativity. My allergies started up today, so I ended up taking some medicine, which had me so sleepy I couldn't even focus, so I broke down and took a nap. I only planned to sleep for an hour, even set my alarm clock, still I ended up sleeping longer. I guess I needed tho. Now the medicine has worn off but I have a headache. I dont know if I should take two advils or not. I feel like im becoming a pill popper, lol.