Sunday, January 11, 2009

Thorns for Thoughts


I shouldnt be left alone with my thoughts. I think for too much and for too long. Open doors leave room for negativity to come in. But how do you leave yourself open for the good things without recieving any of the negative. I feel like the more I try to focus on the positives and let things get to me, the harder it is. Feels like something is always nipping at my heels, clawing at the edges of my sanity and it does not feel good. Its a daily fight to be happy. Just like now, nothing is going wrong at the moment but negative thoughts keep trying to pop into my head. Why is that. I wish I had some type of remote to turn my thoughts off. But I'll continue to fight off the negativity. My allergies started up today, so I ended up taking some medicine, which had me so sleepy I couldn't even focus, so I broke down and took a nap. I only planned to sleep for an hour, even set my alarm clock, still I ended up sleeping longer. I guess I needed tho. Now the medicine has worn off but I have a headache. I dont know if I should take two advils or not. I feel like im becoming a pill popper, lol.




6 comments:

Amelia said...

I think the same way. I don't even try to be positive though lol. The only thing I am focusing on is not letting other people bother me.

I hope you feel better.
*M*

Unknown said...

Hope your feeling better soon

Amanda said...

(((((((((((((MELISSA)))))))))))))))Do I know how you feel about trying to think good thoughts,its hard,very hard,I am with Missy,I dont even try to think anything good,I am always staying on the negative things.I guess the best thing for you to maybe try is,dont let it get to you for a long time,try to be good to yourself,which belive me,is hard.I should take that as my ow advice.If you dnt want to sleep for a long time,maybe sleep for a little bit,than if you cant wait,try and go to bed early,but not to early.Just something to think aboout.

Amanda said...

((((((((((((((((MELISSA)))))))))))))One more thing,I hope your alagries feel better soon.

sober white women said...

Negative thoughts always try to creep into my mind as well. I just put a different spin on everything.
Example: The last time I got a flat tire it was pouring rain, and I did make it home.
My spin: I am so glad that I got that flat tire close to home and not while I was on the freeway with the children.
I think it is all in how you look at it.
I do hope that this helps you a little.
Kelli

Amelia said...

Hey girl.

I'm just stopping back in. I couldn't go to sleep like I wanted to. I guess I slept to much today and I'll be feeling it tomorrow!

Just wanted to say thanks for talking to me tonight. I know I can ramble relentlessly at times so I appreciate you listening.

I'm looking forward to coming by to visit by the way. Chunty don't mind so I don't see anything stopping me as long as you don't change your mind ;)

I hope you have a great day at work.

*M*