Awards

I was given the "Sexy Blogger Award" By Sharon of Life is a wonderland. Thank you so much! Actually this award was given to me for my Story Journal, but since only a few people read it I wanted to share it here.

http://sharoninwonderland.blogspot.com/2009/02/sexy-blogger-award.html

Rules:
List five things about yourself that YOU think makes you SEXY!

Ok, I have to change the rules on this a little bit because..well, I dont really think of myself as sexy. So im going to name 5 things that people have told me they think is sexy about me.

1. My eyes. I have been told I have sexy eyes..even heard I have bed room eyes. (whatever that means)

2. My smile. I've been told that my smile is sexy. (I can almost see that..sometimes)

3. My body. Ive been told I have a sexy body or sexy shape. (still dont understand that one)

4. My voice. People tell me I have a sexy voice. Well..men do. (I dont like my voice)

5. My Stories and Poems. Ive been told that some of my stories and poems are sexy. (I can actually see that...cuz I can really go there when I want to, lol)

My picks:

http://somemightcallmecrazy.blogspot.com/2009/02/being-sick-annoyed-easily.html

http://suburbaneuphoria.blogspot.com/2009/02/carrot-hiccups.html

http://learningtoadapt.blogspot.com/2009/02/these-turned-out-really-nice.html

http://butterflydreamer-dreamlight.blogspot.com/2009/02/mystery.html

http://delightfullyinappropriate.blogspot.com/2009/02/honey-im-home.html

Another award given to me for my story journal by Sharon (thanks girl!) "Addicting Blog Award".

Rules:
List 7 things you do on a regular basis that could become an addiction.

1. Drink Coca-cola (yeah, already an addict Coke is the real thing! LOVE IT!)

2. Being on the computer/Online (past addiction)

3. Watching movies (hmm, yeah..already there. I love! Love! Movies!)

4. Eating (This really is something I have to do, but I do think it can become additing)

5.Popping pills ( I hope it never becomes an addiction but Ive been doing alot of that lately)

6. Daydreaming ( I seem to do alot of this recently too, guess its not a bad thing)

7. Reading ( I used to be very addicted but slowed down, I think its coming back)

My picks..

http://learningtoadapt.blogspot.com/2009/02/these-turned-out-really-nice.html

http://butterflydreamer-dreamlight.blogspot.com/2009/02/mystery.html

http://delightfullyinappropriate.blogspot.com/2009/02/honey-im-home.html

http://suburbaneuphoria.blogspot.com/2009/02/carrot-hiccups.html

http://admdesigns.blogspot.com/2009/02/look-how-cool-blog-award.html

http://somemightcallmecrazy.blogspot.com/2009/02/being-sick-annoyed-easily.html

And last but certainly not least. I got the "Look how cool" award from Alvia of ADM Designs. http://admdesigns.blogspot.com/2009/02/look-how-cool-blog-award.html Thank you so much!

I'm supposed to pick 8 blogs and pass it on to them.

http://learningtoadapt.blogspot.com/2009/02/these-turned-out-really-nice.html

http://butterflydreamer-dreamlight.blogspot.com/2009/02/mystery.html

http://delightfullyinappropriate.blogspot.com/2009/02/honey-im-home.html

http://suburbaneuphoria.blogspot.com/2009/02/carrot-hiccups.html

http://admdesigns.blogspot.com/2009/02/look-how-cool-blog-award.html

http://somemightcallmecrazy.blogspot.com/2009/02/being-sick-annoyed-easily.html

http://greenolivesandpicklejuice.blogspot.com/2009/02/thursday-nights.html

http://missiesupsidedownworld.blogspot.com/2009/02/friday-night-update.html

Unexcused Absense

I know its been awhile since I posted. I didnt really think anyone would notice. I just havent felt like writing because I've been so tired and stressed out from work. Today at work was no different. After work my brother met me up to my job and we went to..well he went to put his money in the bank and I went to cash my last tax refund check and get money out of the bank. Then we went to walmart. I got me a new phone. Boost Mobile. I can chirp, but I have noone to chirp with, lol. I have a headache. My brother got a new controller for his game and then we went to Game stop so he could get a new video game. Then we left. When we came out of Game Stop it was pouring down. So we had to walk all the way home in the rain. And its a really long walk from where we were. By the time we got home we were soaked. I hope neither of us get sick. Ugh..thats the last thing I need. Not to mention my stomach hurt me almost all day at work cuz that time of the month popped up..its way early too..Im kinda glad it came early. Its still raining, and I still have a headache so Im ending here for now.

Early Morning Annoyances

Too early in the morning to be up..7:27a.m.
Im cold even tho the heat is on
My mood..feeling..or lack of feeling..numb
Not ready for the week to start but what can you do to stop it?
Nothing.
I didnt even get to sleep for the whole last hour because I woke up with my dad with his heavy boots walking back and forth playing with the knob on my heater
I tryed so hard to ignore it but I couldnt any longer
Cuz the foot steps stopped but he was still standing there
So I quickly pulled the covers from my head and looked up at him thru blurry eyes and asked what he was doing
do you know what that man asked me?
"How did the heater come on when its turned off?" What? That is not the kinda question you ask somebody fresh out of sleep early in the freakin morning. I just said I dont know, rolled over and put the cover back over my head. I guess he had satisfied hisself since I was awake now. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't go back. The fact that the cat decided she wanted to play inside her litterbox nonstop until my clock went off, annoyingly telling me, there was no hope left for sleep. And guess what? As soon as I got. Snowflake stopped making noise in her litterbox! Yeah, I have a feeling something is gunning for me today. And I haven't even left the house yet. Crap, hadnt even got out of bed yet. Im scared to go to work now.

Broken Poetry

Sometimes emotions run so deep
down the hills and slopes, so steep
leaving you panting feeling like its your last breathe
frantically worrying for your sanity and health
what do you do, when you dont know what to do anymore
where do you go, when theres no open door
who do you lean on when noone understands
When your heart falls, where does it land


Anxiety waits and creeps apon your soul
like an invasion of something stole
left abandon at the bottom of the see
no idea where on earth you should be
in a world that doesnt love you
lost and unsure what to do
when panic sets in you let out a scream
then you pass out and hope it was all a dream


Tomorrow comes even tho your not ready
You must continue to stand even tho your legs are unsteady
You must keep going all tho it hurts to move
So you try your best to get into a grove
Only to be thrown a curve ball to get you off course
Angrily looking for the source
You slowly began to fall behind
Time you cant continue to find
To stop and get yourself together
Counting on people is like counting on the weather
But you keeping moving you have no other choice
While stumbling and falling and loosing your voice
You continue on, grasping at hope
Up and down the slippery slope


I dont want to look, I dont want to see
That reflection looking back at me
I try to hide it the best I can
Things never work out the way I plan
Someone always comes along
Your forced to play your sad song
And open up that old sore
Many times ripped and tore
The memories, they still burn
And your stomach still turns
So I dont want to look, dont want to see
Sometimes I simply just dont want to be

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And my hair after I finished drying and straightening it out.

Me, with my hair wet after washing out the hair relaxer.

Kids trying to be Grown

Today at work was rough. we had someone out again today which always puts more work on me. Im so glad its over with. Im tired and I need some rest. Im gonna force myself to do my hair tomorrow and get it over with. And maybe I will take some pictures. I dont know. When I was on my lunch break today at work, one of the para-pro's came up to me and tells me that one of the little boys in here kindergarden class got suspended for making a sexual gesture with his hands. You know how some people will make a circle with there fingers and move another finger in and out of it..thats what the kid supposedly did and she said he was hunching on a little girl. But thats not the worst part. Then she tells me that the boys older brother who is in the 4th grade got suspended today too because of a note he wrote to a girl. Later the same lady comes up to me and shows me a text another teacher sent to her telling here what the note said. So she hands me her cell phone to show me the text message..the message basically said that in the note the little boy wrote that he wanted to eat this girls pussy and f*ck her in the a**..not my words, just sharing what I read...look I even added little stars to make it not look so...nasty..but anyway, I was like dang, those are grown man words...ok..so later when im cleaning up the dishroom, I find the note on the floor. Apparently, someone tried to throw it in the trash and missed. Now the dishroom floor was all wet..and so was the note..well, cuz it was on the floor. But I still was able to open it and read it..even tho it started to tear. What the note actually said was this: (Keep in mind a 4th grader wrote this) To:Juicey (why is a 4th grade girl name Juicey?) From: Turk aka: Sexy (and how is a 4th grade boy named Sexy?)
****Sorry..on to the note**** Baby, I love your body and your sexy eyes. When I look at you I think that I got the best looking girl in the world. My d*ck ready but is your p*ssy?You need to let me know when, where, what time. I love you.

Juicy & Turk

4Ever

****End of note****

But you know, after they caught a 4th grade girl bent over in the boys bathroom, getting in from behind by a forth grade boy, I am not surprised. Ugh....I just dont get why kids want to be grown so freakin fast.

Free samples & other things

well today has been another one of those tiring days. after work i went to cash my check. the lady who cash my check was all asking me if i lost my job because I dont come in there anymore. that aint none of her buisness. but anyway..im exhausted and glad that tomorrow is friday. i got home and saw that I had got my other check in the mail. i am not about to go all the way back again tomorrow. i'll just wait until next friday when my money is in the bank and get it all done at once. all this walking is not helping my thighs heal. they are so freakin sore. not as bad as earlier this week but still. My brother let me use his cellphone to listen to music cuz the batties in my cd player died on my way back home yesterday. I got that money order to put on the phone bill today. I feel alot better now that I know it wont be so high. I washed dishes already and got that out of the way. Yay! Man, I took a bubble bath and I got the water way too hot! Ouch..but once I got in it, it felt really good. I had to kinda ease my way into it.

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Ready 4 the week 2 end

Im tired and my thighs are sore. I went and go my tax refund check today after work. I guess I will go cash it tomorrow after work. Im gonna ask my brother if I can take his phone with me to work tomorrow so I can listen to some music on my way down there cuz my batteries died on me on my way back from Clarks and Associates. Im ready for this week to be over with already.

Update: Later that day..

Ugh..well I lost my entries so I guess I will try to do it again. My mom finally got in touch with her Dr. Now she has an appointment to go see some other Dr. way across town next Monday. I dont understand why my mom has to practically hunt down this Dr. It makes no sense. I just dont know. She also has another appointment this thursday to see her Dr. Im hoping this other Dr. will be able to figure out whats wrong with her and give her something to make her feel better. It makes no sense for her to be hurting like this every day. Im pissed at myself cuz I let the phone bill get to high..ugh..I gotta do something. I think when I get my tax refund back im gonna put a good bit on it, its a start to getting it down. I got a free candle sample in the mail today. I love candles. They come in handy when the lights go out.

Scared

Today at work wasnt too bad as far as working even tho, two people were out. I ended up having to work on the line today tho but it was ok since we had all those salads. I called my mom around 12 when I had a little break to see how she was doing. I had wanted to call her earlier but I didnt because I thought she might be sleeping and I didnt want to wake her, specially since when I woke up this morning at 5am she was awake and she said she was hurting. So I waited until 12 to call and I talked to her and she didnt sound so good. She said her chest was hurting real bad and she could hardly breathe. So then I started to get worried. She says shes feeling a little better but she's still hurting. She's been trying to get in touch with her doctor but the helfer cant be reached. This is pissing me off. Whats the point of having a doctor when they dont help you. This is why I dont like Dr.'s. All that she went thru in the hospital and they couldnt find anything so they send her home and haven't done anything to help since..I mean dang, haven't even checked on her to see how she was doing or what? I just dont know what to do. I dont want anything to happen to my mom, I dont know what I would do. Its starting to scare me. So many people are getting sick and dying...I dont even want to think about it. Ugh..I need to change subjects before I depress myself. But I cant think of anything else to write right now. So I guess I'll just stop here.

Back 2 It

So its back to work tomorrow. Im not ready for it at all. Even tho I had 4 days off it doesnt even seem like it cuz one day I was sick, the 2nd day I was recoving, and the last two days went by in a freakin blur. Im glad that i will be back in the dishroom tho, because I hate working on the line. It was my intention to work on letters today but I havent at all, and I know it wont get done now because I'm getting a headache. I had some yummy candy tonight, it was hersheys kisses but it was white chocolate and it had cookie in it. I need to find some of those. I wonder if they are at all stores or if its a special thing cuz my mom brought it home from my cousins wedding on Saturday. I also had so kisses that were cordial cherry..its what my mom got my day for V-day..interesting taste. I really need to stop eating all of this chocolate. I need to get this phone bill paid. I wonder why the bill hasnt come yet.

Stanky Leg

Ok I literally cleaned myself sore...well..not me but my room. Now Im pooped. Im not suppose to be working today. And all that dust has started up my allergies. Thats the last thing I need. Its a song out now called "Stanky leg". Ok..is it me or is this gross..I mean I wouldnt tell nobody I had a stanky leg. I know its the name of a dance, but thats not a nice name..I wouldn't want it. If somebody told me I had a stanky leg I'd be offended. They really need to find some better names for these stupid dances and songs they keep making.

Dont ask questions you dont want the answers to

You know I have an issue. How do you know what to say and not to say to people? I mean people are always saying, oh you can talk to me and I'll be here for you or yeah you can talk to me about anything, and then when you open up to them its like a slap in the face..cuz obviously their not as open minded as they said they were. It just sucks. This is why I dont open up to people cuz whenever I reach out and take the chance to be open with someone about what Im feeling or what Im going thru I wish I never have. Well..it wont happen again. Theres very few people I can openly talk to in this world and it doesnt take all 5 fingers. I'll just stick to talking to those. I just cant deal with close minded people. Only gives me more reason to stay hidden in the dark. Thanks for nothing.

Aches & Pains

I went to church this morning. Its the same as always. When the service was almost over and I was standing up, I started to get dizzy and my stomach started to hurt so I sat down. I was so sleepy the whole time. I thought maybe if I ate something when I got home I'd feel better since I hadnt eaten anything all morning. But it didnt help. Then I ended up getting a headache. Crap. So I've been drinking water and trying to lay down. Im starting to feel better now. Im trying to catch up on my tapes cuz I've been behind on them for a few weeks now. I've ben thinking about my chocolate candy. I should get some..not now, but later. I'm gonna watch a movie later with Junior.

Recovery Road

Yesterday I was sick all day. I dont know where it came from, just out of nowhere...ugh. First day of vacation..not a good way to start it but at least I didnt have to work that day. I got up and went to the atm machine and went to get a money order and came back home. On my way back I started to feel really dizzy. Im glad I made it back home without falling out in the street. So, yeah I spent half the day in the bathroom and the other half in the bed. Im feeling alot better today tho thankfully. This morning I was really sore and hurting but Id just roll over and go back to sleep. Everytime I woke up Id feel a little better until the last time I woke up and the pain was gone. Phew! Oddly my stomach still feels empty and I cant eat very much..and Im not gonna force it, I dont want to get sick again. I got candy, cards and a drawing for Valentines day, so that was nice. Im trying hard not to eat this whole box in one night..its a small box but still..

Sleep wanted here

Its been a long hard day, work sucked..thankfully its over and I can finally get some rest. My legs hurt. I was hoping I would get paid today but I guess it will be tomorrow. I was wanting to go on down there when I left work since I was already out but I guess its best this way cuz Im too tired to be going anywhere else right now. So I'll check my account when I get up tomorrow and then go. My mom wants a gift basket for Valentines day..Im just gonna let her get it herself cuz she is so picky. My brother didnt want any candy so I told him Id get him a cake. His favorite cake is birthday, lol. Im so glad I have 4 days off. I really need it. Lastnight me and my brother watched the movie "Scorpion King 2". It was good but I was so tired and sleepy I had a hard time staying awake even tho I was sitting up, I found myself tipping over every now and then. I cant wait to see "Super Natural" tonight. I love that show. Im looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. I took a nap, so it helped me to not be drop dead sleepy but Im still tired and sleepy. SuperNatural was a rerun..ugh..already! The season just started back. But Survivor strated back up today and Making the Band. Ugh..still sleepy.

Simple

If life were simple..

yet..it isn't

Today was kind of hard at work

hope tomorrows not bad

the mailman finally brung my mail

took him long enough

Im tired..

If you need rest too

Apply here, and bring pillows

I need some rest...

If only it was that simple

Feeling numb/My picks for the Bff award

http://admdesigns.blogspot.com/2009/02/bff-award.html
alvia

tabby

http://tabathamax.blogspot.com/

Cheryl

http://starbucksbreak.blogspot.com/

Missy

http://learningtoadapt.blogspot.com/

http://goslingsaerie.blogspot.com/

Gosling

http://butterflydreamer-dreamlight.blogspot.com/

Cheri

Shards of glass, insert here



Razor blade, cut there



Blood dripping everywhere



If it splashes, I dont care



I feel really down for some reason, yet..I feel..really numb inside. You know like how sometimes you can cut yourself, bump hard against something but you dont feel it at first..you just feel sort of like a black out of the body. Im tired and worn out. I feel ashamed and dirty. I feel stupid, worthless, empty. And I feel annoyed with myself for feeling all of these things. Wait..let me back track..I felt all of those things at first, and now I just feel numb..yeah thats it. I confuse myself sometimes.

I hate our mailman

Im pissed cuz I have been waiting all day for the mailman to come cuz I was suppose to get something in the mail and he didnt even bring it. I dont know what his problem is or why he cant never bring all my freakin mail when he is suppose too. Work wasnt too bad. After work I went to do my taxes. Im glad that I got that out of the way. I just want the mailman to bring my stuff. Is that too much to ask for?

90 things about me

90 Things You Might Not Know About Me...

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? my brother threw one of his toys at me when he was little and it hit me in my face.


2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? posters, calendars, drawings, pictures


3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP? I used to talk in my sleep when I was little, I also used to sleep walk, ive grinded my teeth in my sleep before but I dont think so recently. My family tells me I have a faint snore sometimes.


4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? I like R&B, Hiphop, pop, rock, and gospel


5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? 8:06p.m.


6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? to get married


7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? spending time with the person I love


8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)? um, Id have to say my computer and my cd player..oh and my tv...wait my vcr..um, that wasnt a good question to ask, lol.


9. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5'5 or 5'6, im unsure


10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? no..I dont mind small enclosed spaces..but I dont like being in small enclosed spaces with alot of people

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?sometimes. when I have bad dreams I dont like to be in the dark when I wake up. some nights I sleep with my tv on but its on mute.


12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?wow..I cant remember..thats good right?


13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PERFUME FOR A GIRL?I dont really have a favorite..whatever smells good. I dont use perfume alot, I mostly buy body spray


14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? Um..well I think black hair is beautiful on anyone. As for eye color I dont know...I find a persons eyes can be very sexy..a man with sexy eyes can always get my attention. I dont think its a specific color tho, but the shape of the eyes and the intensity in them is what really gets too me.


15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING/ BEING PROPOSED TO? um...well I think id rather be proposed to in private...that should be a private moment, so somewhere alone in a romantic setting. But that doesnt always happen, so it really doesnt matter, its the way in which you are proposed to, not so much where.


16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? Energy drink, me needs lots of energy


17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA? meatlovers pizza from pizza hut


18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? some chips, I want something to snack on but I dont really need anything.


19. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH? lol..actually yes I have


20. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU? How the heck would I know..my memory is not that good, lol.

21. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY? Sure do


22. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? maybe, who's asking and why?



23. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? yeah right..why pay for a name. somebody should pay me to put my name on some clothes, lol


24. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW? yes and she is a spoiled brat and Im glad she is not bothering me right now


25. WHAT KIND IS IT? a cat


26. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS GOING TO LEAVE YOU? its not something you can control


27. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? telling them and showing them


28. PICK A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: 25


29. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? brunettes I guess


30. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN? our home number


31. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? negative and critical people


32. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA? no


33. YOUR WEAKNESSES? coke..love


34. MET ANYONE FAMOUS? nope, cant say that I have


35. FIRST JOB? I worked at a summer program for kids


36. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? no i dont think so


37. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT? taking a bubble bath


38. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY? thankfully no


39. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? either my eyes or my body..or is it my face..crap, pick one! I dont know, i get compliments alot and I dont know why.


40. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? Nope.


41. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? hmm.well, Im not gonna wish for anything big..I just want to see a good movie.


42. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT? uh, sometimes, none..sometimes 1..Im still undecided


43. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? no I wasnt and I like it that way


44. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? I used to, but not anymore. wanna know why? cuz it dont work,lol


45. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?whatevers avaliable


46. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? yeah I do, sometimes I get annoyed with it tho


47. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?ham


48. ANY BAD HABITS? sure..ready to be grossed out? If not, skip quickly..I'll give you a minute......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................gone yet? Ok..now for you sick people who like being grossed out, lol..I like to peel my scabs..and then watch it bleed, lol..ha ha, you asked for it, lol.


49. WHAT IS THE MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON YOUR SHELF? Im not really embarrassed by any of my cds. But one cd I wish I didnt get was the princess diaries sound track, and I still dont know why I got it, I dont even remember buying it. apparently I blacked out!

50. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?oh, i'd love me! Im a good friend, lol.


51. DO LOOKS MATTER? Yes, I mean to a point looks does matter, who doesnt want to be physically attracted to the person their with. But I dont think that should be the basis for a relationship, I mean you can be drop dead gorgeous but if we cant get along and have nothing in common it wont work no matter how bad you might want it to.


52. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? writing it out, in a poem or in a diary/journal/blog, singing, dancing, drawing or if all else fails, just kick and throw something.


53. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? I don't have one.


54. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? my cabbage patch doll, her name was Lisa


55. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? um, would you like me to count? I can, hold on..15, I think


56. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A KID? lol..not a fan but I thought it was funny


57. DO YOU USE SARCASM? all the time

58. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE? Macaroni and cheese please! I hate mashed potatoes


59. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY? someone who can make me laugh, accepts me for who I am


60. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? Lissa, Bird, Hunny


61. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BAND/SINGER?: Favorite band "Linkin park/Evanescense...Singer:Mariah Carey/Beyonce'


62. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW? House, SuperNatural, Ghostwhisper, Medium, Monk, The Real World


63. WHAT WAS YOUR ACT/SAT SCORE?I dont know..I think I did better than I thought I would tho


64. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES? sure do!


65. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE VACATION SPOT? I like Florida


66. WHATS THE FASTEST YOU HAVE GONE IN A CAR? I dont know, lol


67. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED? Paul


68. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? the tv guid channel


69. LAST THING YOU DRANK? Dr.Pepper


70. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My brother


71. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? their eyes


72. LAST TEXT YOU GOT? from Missy


73. FAVORITE THING TO HAVE? peace and quiet/privacy


74. FAVORITE MONTH OF THE YEAR? I dont think I have one..hmm..maybe a month during the summer cuz I dont have to work,lol


75. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN? mine...sagg


76. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? black


77. EYE COLOR? brown

78. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? I dont really like sports, but sometimes I watch boxing, wrestling or nascar

79. FAVORITE FAST FOOD ownRESTURANT? Dairy Queen or Pizza Hut


80. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI? no..yuck


81. LAST THING YOU WATCHED? Intervention..well its on now


82. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? I dont know anymore


83. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS? no, wish i did tho


84: Vanilla or Chocolate: chocolate


85. KISSES OR HUGS? kisses


86. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Relationships


87. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? a case of dr.pepper


88. WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU DRIVE? I dont
89. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Dying for Revenge By: Eric Jerome Dickey


90. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE: beautiful, romantic

At the Moment

At The Moment I'm...
Reading-Dying for Revenge By: Eric Jerome Dickey

Listening to-When I grow up
Watching-Family Court
Dreading-work tomorrow
Excited about-getting a surprise Tuesday

Craving-love and affection
Thinking-about sex
Wanting-hugs and kisses
Hoping-for some rest

Movie & Kids

Today I went to the movies to see "The Uninvited". It was really good. We got there kinda early and the earlier movie was still playing so I went and watched "Taken" for a few minutes. The part I saw was really good, so I gotta get that when it comes out on dvd. Today has been a good day. I didnt get any rest tho. So tomorrow I plan on sleeping in. I need it. Oh, this little girl that goes to the school I work at came over here tonight. She had come by earlier but I wasnt home. First, why in the world was she allowed to go walking to someones house at night, specially to someones house her parents dont know. She didnt even have on a jacket, and it was cold out for me and I like the cold weather. She said she wasnt cold. I hope she dont get sick. She said her family was having a birthday party, and she wanted to come by to tell me hey. Then before she left she says she's gonna come back more often. Huh? Why? Its cute and she seems like a nice little girl and all but her parents need to find somebody for her to play with or give her attention themselves cuz she's obviously lonely and in need of attention. I'd hate for her to seek attention from the wrong person and she ends up in trouble. I mean it makes me wonder if she does this all the time. Its some perverted people out there that like to mess with little girls..and if her parents are too busy to notice she's snuck off in the middle of the night something can happen and nobody would know it. I just hate stuff like that because so many kids go missing and end up dead and alot of others are abused in sick horrible ways..its scary. I mean I have to be careful myself walking at night, a little girl shouldnt be out at night by herself. I dont know. That got long winded, lol. I guess it just bothers me. You never know what can happen.

Hush

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strength
My love for you was strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgements
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, I get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words
I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I'm never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So you will listen when I say

I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, I get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

No more words, no more lies, no more crying
No more pain, no more hurt, no more trying

Yeaaaaahh
Because
I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, I get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

Yeaaaaah (hush, hush, hush, hush)

I've already spoken, our love is brokenBaby

My favorite song today..."Hush, hush". Yeah Pussycatdolls again. So what, Im lovin my new cd...anyway. Why I like this song. Another one I can relate to. When you've been dealing with someone for so long, putting up with and letting go of things you knew you shouldnt have and you get to the point where your fed up of being mistreated and taken for granted. When you reach that last straw and you just cant take it anymore. You dont want to hear anymore lies, no more promises you know will only be broken in the end. You just want to open the flood gates and release everything you've been holding back. All the things you wanted to say but didnt because you wanted to be the better person and you wanted to try to make things work. And after you've said all that was left to say you want to walk away and never look back.

Skin

this skin that Im in, is it enough yet
is this as good as its gonna get
this tainted air I breathe is thick
sometimes this rollercoaster makes me sick
this ride that im on, is ok if I coast
and enjoy the moments that i love the most
or is it a sin to be happy, sometimes it seems
the way people have crushed my dreams
and stumped and trashed all my hopes
now im left with all of these ropes
bet they'd like me to hang myself
sorry I strangely care for my own health
even tho others could care less
content to leave me in a pile of mess
I'll still wake up in this skin, bleeding from within
Glass cutting my patience this thin
Dont want to be a waste in the end