Thursday, February 5, 2009

Running on Empty

I thought id try to do a quick entry this morning before I go to work because I dont know when I'll be able to make another one of if I'll even feel like it later today. Yesterday work was hectic, went home tired and nerves bad. I took a nap for about a hour and 1/2, got up and ate dinner. A little while later I ended up at the emergency room with my mom. She says her chest has been hurting her for days. We got there around 5:45pm. I didnt get back home until 12:40a.m. I was so tired...still am. They did test and still dont know whats wrong with her, so they admitted her to the hospital and gave her a room. Room "508", reminds me of a movie..anyway. Thats way too long to be sitting up in the emergency room. I thought I was gonna pull my hair out and scream. I wanted to throw something, fight somebody. I dont know, anything to end the mind numbing boredom. I read, wrote, listened to music until I didnt even want to do that anymore. I finished reading "The Notebook". It was a good book. I'm so sleepy, and Im cold. I have the heat on but it doesnt seem to be enough. I was wrapped so tight in my covers all night wishing I had more blankets or thicker ones. I wished so hard that I ended up dreaming I had more. Its so much warmer in my dreams. But whole lot creepier than out here. Sometimes I wonder if Im at all right in the head. I wonder if someone could look thru the thoughts that go on in my head on a daily basis is they would think Im insane..probably. I hope today is a whole lot easier at work. I just want to get back in bed and sleep. But when do I ever get what I want? I hope my mom comes home today..early. I dont want to have to spend another whole day in the hospital..its depressing. And tiring. Have done it before sometime last year..not something I want on repeat.

8 comments:

sober white women said...

I so hope that your mom is o.k. and will be able to come home today. As a mom I know that she really liked having you there. It showes how much you love her.
Stay warm and get some more rest.
Kelli

Tabby said...

I am so sorry you had to spend the night in the E.R. I hate that. I sure hope your mom is alright and come's home soon. I hope today flies by for you and you get home to relax.

Cheryl said...

I hope your mom is okay

IndigoSunMoon said...

I hope your Mom does well. I do know a little bit about the ER. It does take entirely too long to wait, but they do have to take the most critical patients first, even if we don't like it.
Take care of yourself Melissa. I worry about you girl!
Connie

Missy said...

Damn Melissa, I had no idea about your mom. Chest pain is no laughing matter. Please let me know how everything is. That must be where you're at because I tried to IM you.

I love you girl.

Missy

ADM DESIGN'S said...

I hope that your mom is o.k. and was able to come home today

thisismehugs-amanda said...

(((((((((((((((MELISSA)))))))))))))))I hope your Mom will be ok and will come home early today.I hope you will get to relax this weekend.I have really bad acud reflux,probllay should get it checked out.Everytim I eat anything,it comes right back up.Praying for you and for your Mom.

Amanda said...

((((((((((((MELISSA))))))))))))Have a nice weekend.