Thursday, February 5, 2009
Running on Empty
I thought id try to do a quick entry this morning before I go to work because I dont know when I'll be able to make another one of if I'll even feel like it later today. Yesterday work was hectic, went home tired and nerves bad. I took a nap for about a hour and 1/2, got up and ate dinner. A little while later I ended up at the emergency room with my mom. She says her chest has been hurting her for days. We got there around 5:45pm. I didnt get back home until 12:40a.m. I was so tired...still am. They did test and still dont know whats wrong with her, so they admitted her to the hospital and gave her a room. Room "508", reminds me of a movie..anyway. Thats way too long to be sitting up in the emergency room. I thought I was gonna pull my hair out and scream. I wanted to throw something, fight somebody. I dont know, anything to end the mind numbing boredom. I read, wrote, listened to music until I didnt even want to do that anymore. I finished reading "The Notebook". It was a good book. I'm so sleepy, and Im cold. I have the heat on but it doesnt seem to be enough. I was wrapped so tight in my covers all night wishing I had more blankets or thicker ones. I wished so hard that I ended up dreaming I had more. Its so much warmer in my dreams. But whole lot creepier than out here. Sometimes I wonder if Im at all right in the head. I wonder if someone could look thru the thoughts that go on in my head on a daily basis is they would think Im insane..probably. I hope today is a whole lot easier at work. I just want to get back in bed and sleep. But when do I ever get what I want? I hope my mom comes home today..early. I dont want to have to spend another whole day in the hospital..its depressing. And tiring. Have done it before sometime last year..not something I want on repeat.